Motivations

               I could say that the most motivating method is to offer me a new idea project or a strategy to work on. I enjoy getting involved in the process and if interested enough, go deeply inside. However, a minus side is, that if I see something more appealing after some time, I tend to lose my interest, no matter how passionately I was into the ongoing project. It makes it difficult to me to finish things or be focused until the end. I could say that not even deadlines are motivating enough when I have lost the feeling of novelty and passion of doing it. When working in a group, I even tend to generate ideas, be active at the beginning and closer to the end (especially log projects), I start fading away or be less present.

                One other motivator which could put me back on the track of a project is to praise me and approve the effort and work I have done. I know it might seem a bit childish, but that is the way I am able to make more effort and feel my value for the others or for the process. Moreover, it increases my self-confidence, telling that I actually do something in a good way. It is even possible that I accept some tasks only to receive praise and honour from my friends of the community. I do not want to be famous, but I like when people talk about me and bring out my value or my effort in the process- it might even outrage me when someone else is more honoured or pointed out than me, especially when I feel that I invested a lot of my time and effort in the process.

                I also feel motivated when I can do a voluntary job (although, getting paid would be better), but in some cases I do not care that much of money, so far I am satisfied, can develop my skills, widen my horizon and have a possibility to extend my circle of friends and acquaintances. I have been a volunteer in different organisations since 2012. Although I am also working, I still feel that in some situations or events the group of people, the experience (and even food) inspires me to work for free. I usually make these decisions very spontaneously been driven by my mood or which to have a change in my life or even simply just to have fun.

                I am more a person seeking for satisfaction and well-being than a great salary and a big bank account. I value the experience and my own emotional and skill-related development. I do not think I would be able to earn my salary doing something that does not lighten a flame inside me. Of course, I would like to live a life full of enjoyment that I do not need to worry about the end of the month, but I do not want to waste my life for something that I do not enjoy. I assume that working for money and earning more motivates me only in case I have a bigger goal behind this, need to collect for travelling or some other event or experience. The more time goes on, the less I value material things- I find experiences being more valuable than any other thing I can hold and keep.

               

 I enjoy travelling, being in unexpected situations and meeting new people. When there is an option to go on a journey, I hesitate only a little, if any. Travelling is an activity which teaches me the most since I am a learner who wants to feel, touch, sense and experience. I feel that there is a travelling-germ in my heart which encourages me to take up more and more opportunities and not to surrender in troubles.

               When it comes to professional or school life, I sometimes find it difficult to pull up my weight and get things done. I even tend to procrastinate until the last or almost the last moment. It is not that I am lazy, but I tend to work on the optimal speed and efficiency when the deadline is close or approaching. I know that it is not the best strategy to undertake, but it is the simplest to stand when I need to do something not so favourable. Which factor also hinders my work and process, is if someone tells that I must do something or even scolding me for finishing something. It removes all the joy from any activity and instead of internal force, I experience defiance and insubordination. Although, when someone tells me the opposite that I should not do it because of …, or I should stop doing it now because of… or even wanting to take my job over, then I tend to become stubborn and finish the action just to show what I am able for and to prove myself of my capabilities or sometimes even for showing off. Although this kind of negative enforcement works, it only works for a little period of time and it is not that sustainable since I put my anger and defiance in there- which in my case do not last long. I am a person who needs praise, not ‘beating’.

                One weakness I see in terms of my motivation is my willingness to start things, but difficulties to finish them or take too many responsibilities and then ending up in the point where everything crosses. I am a type of person who cannot say no, or I fo not want to harm other person’s feelings and therefore I lend my hand. Such things happen especially when I can experience something new and exciting and I collect more and more responsibilities because I either cannot choose or overestimate my time, strength and stamina.

During my second semester of the university, I was working on two job positions at the same time (plus also the university and the student council and the Erasmus Social Network organisation where I am a member of). Money was not the main attraction (especially when both of them were related to service and catering), but what flattered me, was the possibility to be invited to work on prestigious events and places while the other one was matching my beliefs and life philosophy. I just could not make up my mind which one I need more at that moment and accepted taking both of them.  I was always running around, sometimes even going from one work shift to another, sometimes working 17 hours in the row and even until 7 AM in the morning- throughout the night. But it worked like this, because I received what I was expecting from there. After I dropped one job, I actually realised how silly it was to keep two jobs besides my studies. 

I took a small motivation test online, but since it asked for payment for the full report, I refused and satisfied myself just with a small summary of this test. According to that I like to take every day one after another, not looking back and too much forward, which I can agree. I like to live in the present and take what life has to offer me. 

Some Instagram pages that I find so motivating, so accurate and so true:

* thoughtcatalog/
* humanlovers
* poems.motivation.thoughts (both of the following photos come from this site!)

And one of the most motivating artist is definitely Mick-Pedaja